Olympic cycling champion Victoria Pendleton says she has “turned a corner” after revealing she considered taking her own life last summer.

Victoria, one of the greatest-ever British cyclists, was diagnosed with depression after returning home from an aborted charity climb of Mount Everest.

Now the 38-year-old, who won golds at the Olympics in Beijing in 2008 and in London in 2012 and nine World Championship gold medals in a glittering career, has spoken publicly about how her mental health deteriorated in a bid to help others.

Victoria, who pursued a career as a jockey after retiring from cycling, said: “I said to my mum: ‘Please would you forgive me [if I killed myself]?’ Obviously, it was very upsetting for her to hear that. But I really wanted my family to be able to forgive me.

“Because... I wouldn’t do it to hurt them on purpose. You just can’t understand how much I was suffering on the inside.”

The attempt to climb Everest, with TV presenter Ben Fogle, ended when Victoria showed signs of hypoxia – a lack of oxygen – and doctors suggested the condition may have caused her depression.

However, Victoria told the Daily Telegraph it could have been an accumulation of factors, including a recent divorce.

Victoria, who was appointed an MBE in 2010 and CBE in 2013 for services to cycling, said: “I went from this full-on environment; avalanches breaking above my head, jumping across crevasses where you might die if you fell in… to coming back here, to a property I was potentially selling because I needed to move on with my life.

“I didn’t really have security in where I was living, what I was doing next, the whole divorce, how I was feeling about that. It just overwhelmed me.”

Speaking out

She sought help from Steve Peters, a psychiatrist with whom she had worked at British Cycling. “I am so grateful that he picked up,” she said. “I don’t think I would be here if he hadn’t.”

And she credits a surfing trip to Costa Rica as a turning point in her recovery and has since become a patron of The Wave Project, a charity which uses surfing as therapy to help young people.

"Since November I have felt much better," she said. “I've turned a corner. That doesn't mean I won't be more cautious in the future, if I start to feel similar symptoms.

“But I feel I'd be better prepared at least. I guess that's why I'm speaking out now. In case my personal experience can trigger something of use and value for someone else.”

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